Monday, June 6, 2011

Too Much.


That has been the common theme in my life lately. Have you ever heard the expression "when it rains, it pours"? That is me. Bad things tend to happen to me in groups, which makes them even more impossible to handle. I don't want to use this blog to complain, because I doubt you want to hear that. But, this blog is supposed to be about me right? And to pretend that my life is just rainbows and sunshine all the time just isn't realistic. If your life is rainbows and sunshine every day, I commend you, and would like to ask how in the heck you do it!

The thing no one ever tells you is that being an adult is really hard. If you haven't experienced the stresses of adulthood, count your lucky stars, because it is absolutely no fun. When things go wrong now, the responsibility falls on me to fix it. When did that happen? When did I become responsible?  And the thing is, everything keeps building up. When you think you have made progress on one problem, another load is put on your shoulders. 

I feel as if life these days has been a little too much to handle. I am always one to focus on the positive, and am naturally a pretty optimistic person, but sometimes it is tough to find the bright side of things.  This isn't the first time I have faced hardship, and I know it won't be the last either. I will get through this rough patch, but right now, at this very moment, it sucks. 

The most I can do is pray. With any problem facing my life, I turn to God to help me through it. When it may seem like everything is going wrong, God has a plan, and will not leave me stranded. Our Daily Bread spoke to me today (as it does most days) when it gave me these words:

"Underneath the restless surface
Of each trial that comes in life
Flows the Savior’s love and power—
They can calm our inner strife." —D. De Haan

God's love and power can help me overcome anything! Even if it is hard to see, when you are faced with  trials and tribulations, His love will help you through it! God has also blessed me with lots of loved ones around me, who I can lean on when times are tough. I am lucky to have people in my life, like Nick, who care enough to just hold me and tell me everything will be okay. 

But, what makes me the most sad is that I have been neglecting my blog. Writing brings me more happiness then anything else, but the stress I have been going through has prevented me from doing what I love best. I don't want to neglect this little blog of mine, or you guys anymore! I am going to get back on the horse, and keep on truckin'. (Excuse the mixed metaphors there) 

I know this has dragged on, but I wanted to let you know why I have been m.i.a.

I will be back, and better then ever! But for right now, I will cuddle with Nick, and throw myself a pity party for a little while longer....


this free bird said...

You hang in there and no worries on lack of posts. Sometimes you just neeeed to take a little downtime or you'll get sucked under. Just try to sneak in a post for your own happiness whenever you can.

Let me know if I can help :)


[SMASH] said...

I hope things perk up for you soon. Yes, being an adult is hard stuff and really stinks sometimes. But with this, you'll appreciate all the normal-to-awesome days ahead. <3

jacin {lovely little details} said...

cheer up charlie!!!

Anonymous said...

Chin up love! Being an adult can be super sucky - but when you get through the rough patches in one piece you look back and feel so good about yourself! xoxo

Brittany said...

I'm sorry Kai :( Just keep on will pass. Love you girl!

Ashley said...

I like to think God is testing me when I feel similair to how you described...this to shall past. God certainly is always there for us during good times and bad. I hope everything works out for you! I'll keep ya in my prayers! :)

♥ Nadine ♥ said...

Breathe deeply!! :)
I keep my fingers crossed for you that everything works out the best in a bit... Life can be hard, I totally feel ya! Sometimes it's just too much!!
And growing really su*** sometimes!!

Here's to a slightly better rest of the week. XO.

Olivia.Dee said...

always remember that youre not alone in feeling the way you do. every one has experienced some thing along the same lines at least once in their lives. the best part about it... we're all here to help in what ever ways we can!

Delaney said...

I've been feeling overwhelmed a lot too! It is nice to know we are not alone. Thanks for sharing and sorry that you are feeling overwhelmed!

Miss Caitlin S. said...

Ugh, so sorry you have had the blues. I've had them too lately and what thing I did was really reflect on what was upsetting me. I came up with two things and one was overwhelmingly my job. So... I worked hard to move into a better role in a different department, it's so nice and has helped. Though I'm not out of the woods, the proactive change has made a difference. I'm like you sometimes, just like ugh, why do I have to steer my own life! (which is ridiculous I know, haha, I just miss being 4 and having Parents take care of everything).

Anna said...

I've missed you in the blog world, but I'm sorry to here about your stresses. Take deep breaths, lean on Nick, and I hope things come through for you soon!

And don't worry, we'll all still be here when you get back to blogging. =)

Shalyn said...

I am so sorry, Kai.I have felt the same way lately and it is definitely no fun:-(I hope that everything gets better for you soon!

A Lost Feather said...

i know how you feel.. being an adult is stressful. for the most part i can keep a positive attitude as well, but sometimes my stress manifests itself in insomnia and the next thing i know i'm watching the sunrise and feeling terribly sorry for myself. i find that when i actually can get to sleep it helps a llllloooot. also.. bad luck does tend to come in with friends. just last week i hit my head, scrapped my knee, burnt my fingers, got lost, annndd almost ran out of gas.. that was all on last sunday. i guess the bright side was that i didn't run out of gas? blah! i hope you're feeling better soon :)

Kristin W said...

Yep! I've been feeling the same way recently. Hang in there and things will get better eventually.

I definitely have the "when it rains, it pours" syndrome. Hope you find something to brighten things up :)

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