Too Much.

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Overwhelmed.

That has been the common theme in my life lately. Have you ever heard the expression "when it rains, it pours"? That is me. Bad things tend to happen to me in groups, which makes them even more impossible to handle. I don't want to use this blog to complain, because I doubt you want to hear that. But, this blog is supposed to be about me right? And to pretend that my life is just rainbows and sunshine all the time just isn't realistic. If your life is rainbows and sunshine every day, I commend you, and would like to ask how in the heck you do it!

The thing no one ever tells you is that being an adult is really hard. If you haven't experienced the stresses of adulthood, count your lucky stars, because it is absolutely no fun. When things go wrong now, the responsibility falls on me to fix it. When did that happen? When did I become responsible?  And the thing is, everything keeps building up. When you think you have made progress on one problem, another load is put on your shoulders. 

I feel as if life these days has been a little too much to handle. I am always one to focus on the positive, and am naturally a pretty optimistic person, but sometimes it is tough to find the bright side of things.  This isn't the first time I have faced hardship, and I know it won't be the last either. I will get through this rough patch, but right now, at this very moment, it sucks. 

The most I can do is pray. With any problem facing my life, I turn to God to help me through it. When it may seem like everything is going wrong, God has a plan, and will not leave me stranded. Our Daily Bread spoke to me today (as it does most days) when it gave me these words:

"Underneath the restless surface
Of each trial that comes in life
Flows the Savior’s love and power—
They can calm our inner strife." —D. De Haan

God's love and power can help me overcome anything! Even if it is hard to see, when you are faced with  trials and tribulations, His love will help you through it! God has also blessed me with lots of loved ones around me, who I can lean on when times are tough. I am lucky to have people in my life, like Nick, who care enough to just hold me and tell me everything will be okay. 

But, what makes me the most sad is that I have been neglecting my blog. Writing brings me more happiness then anything else, but the stress I have been going through has prevented me from doing what I love best. I don't want to neglect this little blog of mine, or you guys anymore! I am going to get back on the horse, and keep on truckin'. (Excuse the mixed metaphors there) 

I know this has dragged on, but I wanted to let you know why I have been m.i.a.

I will be back, and better then ever! But for right now, I will cuddle with Nick, and throw myself a pity party for a little while longer....